(just let the rain fall) | lights will guide you home...     

{Sunday, November 07, 2004}

i've got nothing to do...rite playing pool on yahoo...and still playing. i think i know why this school vacation is so damn boring, crappy and sad. rachel watched a 'drama' last nite. maybe it was hear. some guy had some probs with his break up with his girlfriend and her mom was councling that guy. his gf is in rgs and is in a gang! and then the guy told her mom and the gf was super pissed and slapped him. hahax.i feel kinda lost...hurt and empty. deosn't he understand? and i mean he. i dun feel like thinking abt it but i can't help and do... it so stupid somehow. he's always pretending. i can't really think straight. would he stop confusing me for once? love brings joy and pain comes along with it...i dunno whose prob is worse. mine or rosanne's. rosanne's to do with friendship and mine is abt this person...i dun even know why i like him in the first place. i mean i find so many faults with him and i can't even find a single good thing with him. it's so hard to get over. it's like he doesn't even care. he even forget it's my email. tt means i dun mean anything to him. so why am i still caring? i think the decision i made abt wad i'm gonna do at the end of this yr is good. maybe it'll help me get over it...and maybe not...bleh.i dun care if he's gonna read this. he wouldn't even care because he has never. and that's why my sch vaca is so crappy and moody...
~forever in my heart~

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