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{Saturday, April 30, 2005}

i'm EXTRA PISSED today. becuase of yesterday and some other s____ stuff. i'm pissed at those ____. especially ____. you wanna take all that credit? FINE! why am i even giving a damn?!! i don't see a point talk to you all ANYMORE!

AND YOU'R ____ HAS NO DIFF! okayy?! it's still the same as the the other rest. it's not THAT special. even though you act shy, you can be such a biatch.

why do i still continue to see them and talk to them? at least i don't sit with them at lunch. i'm gonna ignore for as much as i can.

i'm so pissed with this world. i still miss that idiot. i doubt he ever comes. what was the point telling him my password?? but still doesn't mean i'll stop referring him as him and idiot. i don't wanna sound like those people who are so attched to their ex-s and keep blogging abt it, but i realy miss him. i do wanna get over but i still wanna keep him as a friend. i'm so attached to having a friendship with him that i have been too scared to say anything to him abt how i like him.

but heyy! friendship is always better. LOVE MAKES ME SICK, despite me almost being in it...just realized it's the first time i've blogged the word despite..

YES. love makes me sick. i don't see the effing point why you should be. unless it's friendship and family love. but bgr's and all the other r's are so pointless. it's like the r's are because of sex and bgr's cuz of NO POINT. i should never fall in love ever. unless of course it's some young billionaire.

oh yes. my expectations are damn high but that's me and just accept it. i'm not marrying some poor idiot! i either my dream guy or NOT MARRY! you can say i'm vain and blahblahvblahh but I DON'T CARE! it's my life! i'm the one with the choice.

i'm not sure whether i'm pissed or not abt this.
s, I'M NOT EVEN INTERESTED IN YOU ALL! DON'T THINK I AM! you all are idiots. even those chers!..i think i should be a saddist..

ok. enough of that. friday was ok.
mock trials.
deliberating abt who was guilty and came the decision of that the defendant was.
and so began the sunderson case. was so nervous when i had to go to stand and testify. swore on the history txt book and then sat on that tiny desk. doubt i even looked like a vp. i totally sucked. i could see mr harmon grading my performance. sigh.

gonna do my homework now. procrasinated long enough.

- i repeat, screw the
whole effing world!

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